Saturday, April 23, 2011

Birthday!

Lor:

Thursday was my birthday and I spent it with my family and friends of course. Yesterday though, Al dished out the birthday spankings, which were quite enjoyable. But through the course of about a half an hour, I guess I started getting an attitude, so he decided to spank me even more. It hurt so much, but what he did next I didn't expect at all.

See, sometimes when spanking, he'll use different things to get different reactions or better behavior. Well, my phone charger was sitting on the bed, so when he turned be around and pulled my pants down, he whipped me with the cord of the phone charger, and oh boy, did that hurt. Part of me thinks I was just shocked by how much it hurt, but I started bawling my eyes out after five swings of it and couldn't take anymore, so he hugged me and wouldn't let me go until I was okay.

I calmed down a little after that. Of course there was still pain, but I was feeling a bit better knowing that he respects when I really can't take anymore, so instead of going on, he hugs me until I'm okay.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Motivation

Lor:


Sometimes I lack motivation to do the simplest things. I've decided that I need to start taking better care of myself and not put myself down as much. I have a problem with bringing myself down to the lowest point where my whole day will be shit because of it.


A lot of me wants to work out and be healthy and feel beautiful, even though Al says I'm already fine. I just want to be comfortable in my own body. I lack motivation to do so, though. So, Al gave me a motivational spanking, and I think it worked. I bought some workout clothes and I've been eating healthy. I feel kind of good. Al's slightly afraid of me going back to being anorexic, but I promised him I wouldn't do that.


I just want to be happy.